Hold my hand, I’ll never get tired.

It’s sad to think how we desperately long for someone who isn’t and was never ours. It’s sad and funny, equally. But the thing is, that is how much we can offer for love. That is how much we can love. Like asking why that one can’t love us? Worse is, we can find reasons on why that one should consider us, than reconsider moving on. Because, yes, I am happy cooking every meal you’ll have every single day. Yes, I’ll be glad doing your laundry to lessen what you’ll be doing. Yes, I’ll be honored massaging your feet, or even your whole body, just to make you feel better after your long day at work. Yes, I’ll undoubtedly drive you to wherever you’re going. Yes, I can be that one who’s going to be with you when you’re sick, taking care of you. Yes, I can go wherever you want me to go, with you, just to make you feel that you are not alone, that I will always be here with you. And yes, I’ll be happy doing everything that could make you feel happy, that could make you feel contented, that you could make you feel you have everything. And with all that, I just want you to hold my hand, regardless of how rough it has gone due to everything I can, and I will do for you. I just want you to hold my hand, making me feel that I am loved back, that you truly love me back.

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Soon Enough

We are young. And yet, we worry too much about being in a relationship. At least most of us, let’s admit it. We long for someone who’s going to take care of us whenever we’re sick, who’s going to cuddle with us on a cold weather, who’s going to surprise us even if there’s no special occasion, who’s going to make us feel we are not alone… We always long for someone who’s going to be always there for us. That shouldn’t be the case. We shouldn’t be desperate. In time, it will be there.

 

We should know, soon enough, love will come along. Someone out there will, soon enough, come into your life to make you feel everything’s perfect… You are perfect. Maybe now is not the time. Maybe now is too early for that. Maybe now is the time for making one’s self happy, because soon, someone will do that thing. And you are to make that one happy, too. Maybe now, just now, that one is still scared to take risks. Risks that could, probably, hurt you, both of you. Maybe that one is still working on being ready on getting into a responsible and happy relationship. Not the teen-type relationship, but a serious, matured one. The risks, maybe that one is still afraid, still fearful. When all that one can do now is be clingy, be sweet, and be someone you ever wanted, but that’s just it… you’re not committed because of that fear. But let’s give time, because, maybe, that’s what everyone needs to be entirely happy and ready. Giving time and having time for your own is important. So let’s give everyone time.  

 

Thus, soon enough, everyone will learn to love regardless of the gender (Maybe this is another issue, but it goes to this one as well.). That when love hits the both of you, no matter whom that is, you’ll probably give in to it. That no one will ever be afraid to love because you’ve readied yourselves in to the judgmental nature of people, and learned not to care at all, because you are happy… because you love.   

Ang pagtanggap sa sarili. (Four Sisters And A Wedding – Movie Review)

Madrid, John Paul M.

Colegio de San Juan de Letran – Intramuros

 

Ang Four Sisters And A Wedding ay handog sa atin ng Star Cinema na isang pang-pamilya o pang-magkakapatid na pelikula. Ito ay tungkol sa Salazar Siblings na muling nagsama-sama makaraan ng ilang taon para sa kasal ng kanilang bunsong kapatid. Hindi lang sila umuwi para masaksihan ito, ngunit para pigilan na rin. Ang pelikula ay hindi lamang nakasentro sa kasal ni CJ, ang bunsong kapatid, ngunit ipinakita rin dito ang mga narating ng magkakapatid. Ang magkakapatid ay sina; Teddie, ang panganay, na OFW sa Spain; Bobbie, naging tagumpay sa kanyang piniling propesyon sa New York; Alex, isang independent Film assistant director; Gabbie, isang guro na nakatira kasama ang kanilang ina; at CJ na kanina’y nabanggit na. Hindi man naging perpekto at masagana ang lahat, pero isa pa rin ang naging dahilan para magkasama-sama at magkasundo sila… ito’y dahil sila ay magkakapatid, sila ay pamilya.

 

Ang pelikula ay naging matagumpay dahil sa masuring pagpaplano at maayos na organisasyon. Unahin na natin ang casting, hindi maikakailang nakuha nila ang ilan sa mga batikang aktor na nagampanang maayos at nabigyang buhay ang mga pagkatao ng mga karakter. Kasama na rin ang mga make-up artists at stylists na tumulong para lalong mabagay ang mga aktor sa kanilang karakter. Kabilang na rito ang mga maayos at magaling na trabaho ng mga tao sa likod ng pelikula na nag-ayos ng set para mas mabigyang ideya ang manunuod sa kung anong estado ng buhay ang mayroon ang isang karakter, at props para mabigyang ideya ang mga tao sa kung anong posibleng mangyari. Sa mga taong responsable para sa editing na nagbigay ayos sa pagkakasunod-sunod, framing at kung ano-ano pang kailangang i-edit, at sa mga taong responsable sa mga musika o tunog na ginamit sa pelikula para mabigyang kasukdulan ang emosyon sa bawat pangyayari. At lalo na sa mga manunulat na gumamit ng wika na maiintindihan at makakapukaw ng atensyon ng mga manunuod kung saan sila makaka-relate. At hindi rin natin puwedeng makalimutan ang direktor na naging masipag at matalino sa bawat desisyon para sa pelikulang ito. Hindi natin maikakaila ang tagumpay na nakamit ng pelikula dahil sa mga tao sa harap at likod ng camera.

 

Naging maganda at magaling ang unang handog na pelikula ng Star Cinema para sa kanilang ika-dalawampung anibersaryo. Ito’y napapanahon nga para sa atin upang mas matanggap at mabigyang-pansin natin ang pagmamahal ng pamilya natin. Pero bukod doon, mas matatanggap natin ang sarili natin dahil maaari nating makita ang pagkatao natin sa isa sa mga karakter sa pelikula. At mula doon ay makikita natin na hindi ka man ang pinakamagaling, pinakamabait, pinakamatalino, o pinakamatagumpay, may pamilya ka pa rin na magmamahal sa ‘yo at ang tingin sa iyo’y ikaw ang pinakamagaling/mabait/matalino/matagumpay na taong kilala nila. At ang mas importante nga sa lahat ay ang pagkilala mo sa sarili mo, sa mga kakayahan at kahinaan mo, at pagtanggap dito.

Someone who doesn’t exist.

        “You don’t need anyone to be happy.” That’s what they say. But, clearly, only lunatic people would say that. Of course, you need someone to be happy. I’ve been to trips alone some time, fulfilling yet it would be meaningful if you’re with someone. I’ve been there, and I’ve done that. I know it better than anyone who hasn’t experienced that.

 

        We all need that someone who could go along with our weirdness. Being alone is being insane. And I’m guilty. But this time I felt sad. Who would not want to meet someone? Who would not want to be with a person who could go along with your trips? No one. And if there’s anyone who disagrees, talk to me, or talk to some expert one. Maybe your mind is not normally stabled. Anyway, honestly, I felt sad. I want someone who could go an out of town trip with me for a day that wasn’t planned. I want someone who could ditch their plans, classes, or work for a day to go somewhere, far. I want someone whom I could ask to go to the mall with, anytime of the day, without knowing what to do there, and then see a movie with me, or pig-out with me, or whatever. I want someone who could go along with me. It would be perfect. Just perfect!

 

        See, that’s what I’ve been waiting for. For the last 18 years of my life, too young, though. So it’s okay for me to wait. But not that long. I just want to have someone who won’t get tired going on trips with me. Because I don’t want to be alone. I know how bad it feels to put your camera on timer just to have a whole body shot of yourself to a wonderful place. I know how bad it feels to lean on the bus’ window to sleep instead of leaning on that special one’s shoulder. I know how bad it feels not to have someone who you can share excitement and happiness with as you reach a wonderful place for the first time. I know how bad it feels to be with someone who doesn’t exist. Crazy, right?